Today I am back to the world of blogs that have been missing for a year to not write anymore. My mind has been covered in laziness, but there are many moments I’ve written here. Relax now I’m back to tell my romance stories (again) and my doubts.
Either started where I started. But right at the age of 17 years ago in December, I learned from him to be able to sophomore. Suffering 2 years and a half has passed. Now I really admit it. There are so many things that I have done that he hates, disappointed, angry and now he thinks I am a stranger. Every time I see him I can not control my emotions. Just looked down and did not dare look at him. Always the past I had ever made with him often came up in my mind when dealing with him. There was a congratulation from his friends, that he was fed up with childish behavior and behavior and still I wished so much to be back with him. Honestly, right on her birthday on January 12th ago I was sad unable to do anything. I pray that we can meet again after the school breakup, and you can open your heart to me. Whatever they say, I am strong enough to hear the temptations of them. Somehow I can stop him long ago, they still carry my name in front of you. Now I have made you embarrassed and angry. Really, I have no intention at all like that. That’s not my request. Oath. Will your heart open my apology?
In order for you to know, I failed to be able to snoop you. The night before I heard the news I stood looking at your photograph and looked at you seriously. Word for word is spoken, my tears pouring heavy, my chest tightness. Why? Why the shadows still appear. I wish I could forget and let go of what happened. Looks like you think it all ” misunderstood ” or ” do not care ” with this all. Something more painful than what you say even though the words are not spoken from your own lips. Could not stop crying then, my mind was messed up, my heart was churned. I can not get up to your word at that moment. The next day, one of them told you the shocking situation. This is not the second time I’ve heard you crash again. I refuse my heart to disregard the news from you. Now it’s still, my heart says to care about you again “How are you doing now? I miss you”. After I realized I had failed, I thought of you. That whole day my mind is still thinking about your situation. I grabbed a pen and paper, my mind was out of control. I wrote the paper according to my heart and mind without thinking about the impact. I put the paper in the envelope and said “I hope this is not too stupid for me to do.” And I dreamed with a sentence that I hate “Why am I worried about the commitment I made last year?